Yeshua's Love

For those who would like to know about the title to my blog, it is in honor of  my husband who takes great joy in pluralizing many nouns and occasionally verbs....ises. So, here I sit on the couch in the den with my two cats near by and my husband who just went potty.  I was replying to a thread I had started this morning on FB which quickly escalated beyond what I thought it would have. Since my reply was of some length I decided to post using my laptop instead of my phone.  After which I decided to post a new blog because why not? My tummy is hurting fyi, this happened just after I took my meds today.  Which was around three hours ago. Meh.  Whatever. Anyway, sorry but don't feel much like blogging today.  Take care and God bless. Yeshua is Lord. Kenny Maese

Hello my lovelies!   So today finds us in the middle of February 2020 and changes are starting to take place.   First of all it's officially been over a year since I met Alex and I could not be happier in my life. He is the sweetest man, so freaking caring, loving and wonderful.  March 30th will be our one year anniversary from when we agree to be exclusive.  Yay!   I also took off today to send out resumes and put in applications.  I did this with several companies because come heck or high water I am moving on with where I work.  Yes, I am taking steps to leave ADS.   I bought some drums two days ago and hopefully I will be able to play them at church (MCC in Albuquerque, NM).  If not I may just take out on ad for a bass player, guitar players and vocalist to form a classic rock band.  Anyway, I don't feel much  like blogging right now, I only did it because I hadn't blogged in awhile. Take care.  In Yeshua's Hol...

It's the new year 2020! Wow! I can't believe I've made it this far.  Amazing. God is good.  Always. So let me catch you up to speed as it were. I am now married since November 23rd, 2019 to Alex and I have never been happier in my life.  Are we the perfect couple. Nope. We have days where we click perfectly and then other days when we clash.  We both have made it clear to each other that we are in it for life.  Everyone in my life says they have noticed how much I have grown as a person and my heart says that it has mostly everything to do with Alex.  He is the most amazing, sweetest person who genuinely loves me and I know in my heart of hearts that he will never do anything to intentionally hurt me and I know that he knows the same things applies from me to him. In just over a week we will be headed for a couple of days to Laughlin, NV for our honeymoon and I can't wait.  I'm so freaking happy. I also just completed an internship at work fo...

So I am at my apartment packing things to give away to some charity or another as well and throwing away things I don't need. To catch you up to speed, I have officially been dating Alex since March 30th when we committed to each other. It's been absolutely amazing.  Not that it hasn't been without it's faults just like any relationship.  My lease is up in October and I'll be moving into a spare bedroom at Alex's house. I cant wait.  We've adopted to kittens, they are named Edgar and Allen.  There was a third kitting Poe but we couldn't take him, luckily during the adoption process and family came in looking for a kitten and since Poe was the last kitten I'm pretty sure he's in a good home now. My birthday was several days ago....53 years old.  Thanks to Alex I had the best birthday I've ever had in my entire life.  He made the entire five days I had off of work so freaking special.  Food, drinks, music, presents, cake and on Sund...

We are just getting into Spring and already my allergies are out on control.  Sheesh. Watery and itchy eyes for the most part but the occasional sneezing and of course drippy nose.   Yay. Today I'm blogging to share the "awesome" incident involving Taco Bell. Don't get ahead of me and no a change of underwear was not required.  I've just recently got a second job working part time at Arby's.  In order to get my schedule I needed to have my drivers license and my social security card.  I tore my apartment apart but could not locate it.  So off the the social security office I go.  After a two hour wait the mission was complete and I head to Arby's and give them the required paperwork. At this point I decide I'm hungry and stop off at Taco Bell for burritos.  I then think I should pick up a few groceries and the Walmart Neighborhood store next to the Taco Bell. In the parking lot of the Walmart I take a bite of the burrito and in...

caught up in my own stupidity I smell the stench that stains my skin it pulls me down to the floor as the words it's all your fault echo in my brain I have nowhere left to go I have no one I can turn to my sins have seeped within my pores and there are no more tears within my soul (bridge) I cry out to you I cry out I reach out for you I reach out my heart yearns for you my heart yearns (chorus) So I place my life in your hands all that I am and have become I give to you completely simply put your presence drives all darkness away simply put your presence drives all darkness away In a world of black and white even gray becomes a blur your death upon a cross my sins that drove the nails my will be done It was my will that done me in you knew me before I was born As I lay on the floor of my heart I am undone I shiver without stop You're hand upon my head I feel nail print of love you kneel and embrace me

Two weeks ago I started watching videos on YouTube about people who say they had either died and went to hell or were taken to hell so they may testify to the truth of hell.   Honestly, it scared me...no, scared is too weak of a word.  It shook me to my core.  To the point that I went through my house and threw out every book, comic book, music, and video that I thought even remotely had any connection with Satan.  I prayed constantly to be forgiven of my sins and for God not to send me to hell.  God showed me that I am not to be afraid, that I only need to show Him that I love Him by obeying Him....completely.  Yesterday I decided that enough is enough and I was going to make a stand. I needed to get close with my Savior.  Period.  Nothing  and no one was going to stand in my way. I put a notice on Facebook and told the gay Christians administration team (I am an admin there) that I was going on a sabbatical to strengthen ...