Da New Year

 So here we are.  The year 2022.  Off topic really quickly (yeah right) do you know what I love the best about blogging?  I can make as many abbreviated sentences as I want  Yeah, that didn't come out nearly as exciting as I thought it was going to.  At any rate here it is the year 2022 and so much has gone down.  Alex and I celebrated two years in November since we took our "vows" before God.  It feels like we are roommates at this point though.  I haven't worn my ring in I think three days.  Alex hasn't noticed or at the very least he hasn't said anything.  We also both contracted the virus at the end of November.  Less than a week later I started my new job with Social Security with the call center.  I finally got me a government job, so excited but it's going to be pretty stressful for the first couple of years.  Oh, well lol.  I'm pretty tired right now.  I only got a couple of hours of sleep last night before I had to be to work at 8am this morning.  After work I relaxed then did the dishes, cleaned the cat boxes, took out the trash and brought in the cat litter from Alex's SUV.  Not one thank you or word of gratitude from Alex.  I'm pretty used to it by now.  

I got pretty sick with covid but Alex said I was a big baby during the time I was sick even though he got to take off work for a week and sleep and rest while I had the weekend off before starting my new job so I had to power through but yeah, I guess I was a baby.  Anyway, I lost 18 lbs while I was sick ending up at 168 at my lowest.  I am now back to around 176 lbs which does not make me happy but it is what it is.  Man, I am seriously tired.  My diabetes is the worst it's ever been.  Leg pain,hand pain, my eyesight failing abemong a ton of other things.  I was trying to get an appointment with the VA but it's almost impossible.  It's hard to type this due to my eyes.  

I guess I'm going to stop for now, there's so much other stuff going on, especially with Alex and mine relationship, I should have put quotations on the word relationship.  The very basic of our most recent talk was that he was going to start cleaning up after himself but every time I go in the kitchen there are empty cheese wrappers and crap.  The only way for there to be any type of peace is for me to shut up and just pick up after him.  He doesn't seem to care about my feelings.  

I better go, I'm just getti g depressed thinking about it.  If I could go back in time I would have walked out of Sadies and right to my car, got in and drove off after telling him we could only be friends.  Then I'd still be working at ADS but I'd probably be in my own house right now.  I'm not watching tv right now and Alex was complaining about being bored so I brought my laptop into the living room so we can hang out but he choose to go to the den to watch tv.  I'm going to my room then.


Talk to you later.  Byt.  
















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