Yeshua's Love

caught up in my own stupidity I smell the stench that stains my skin it pulls me down to the floor as the words it's all your fault echo in my brain I have nowhere left to go I have no one I can turn to my sins have seeped within my pores and there are no more tears within my soul (bridge) I cry out to you I cry out I reach out for you I reach out my heart yearns for you my heart yearns (chorus) So I place my life in your hands all that I am and have become I give to you completely simply put your presence drives all darkness away simply put your presence drives all darkness away In a world of black and white even gray becomes a blur your death upon a cross my sins that drove the nails my will be done It was my will that done me in you knew me before I was born As I lay on the floor of my heart I am undone I shiver without stop You're hand upon my head I feel nail print of love you kneel and embrace me

Two weeks ago I started watching videos on YouTube about people who say they had either died and went to hell or were taken to hell so they may testify to the truth of hell.   Honestly, it scared me...no, scared is too weak of a word.  It shook me to my core.  To the point that I went through my house and threw out every book, comic book, music, and video that I thought even remotely had any connection with Satan.  I prayed constantly to be forgiven of my sins and for God not to send me to hell.  God showed me that I am not to be afraid, that I only need to show Him that I love Him by obeying Him....completely.  Yesterday I decided that enough is enough and I was going to make a stand. I needed to get close with my Savior.  Period.  Nothing  and no one was going to stand in my way. I put a notice on Facebook and told the gay Christians administration team (I am an admin there) that I was going on a sabbatical to strengthen ...

Hey gang!   Not entirely sure why I started this blog with that particular greeting but I'm going with it.    So here i sit at my desk, on my laptop, trying to create this blog while squinting at the screen as my vision slowly gets worse with each passing day.   I probably should schedule an appointment with the VA hospital for my vision but previous attempts have proven useless....mostly my fault though.   To show what I mean about my vision, when I am at work and I look off into the distance, I would say a measure of at least 100 feet (maybe?) everything and everyone looks like a 3D movie without the 3D glasses.    Sometimes the blurriness makes me nauseous. Bleh.    So I've been watching a lot of videos on people who say they were given a tour of hell and for the first couple of weeks it really super freaked me out.  I'm like seriously NOT wanting to go to hell and most certainly not for eternity.    I threw ev...