Chocolate Ice Cream and Xanadu

So here I sit eating chocolate ice cream with a fork and watching the opening dance number from the movie Xanadu, "I'm Alive".  Love the dance movements in this video.

As you know I haven't been blogging like I should or want.  I think about it all the time.  Depression is a heck of a thing to battle.  I just don't want to do anything.  Some may consider this laziness like I used to think it was. It's different though when I try to force myself to do things........even fun things and I start getting very anxious and a battle happens in my mind and I end up just staying home like I always do..

It's a chore to even go to the grocery or other errands I know I need to do.  I have to force myself.

I'm revamping my life yet again.

Can't help it.

I'm constantly thinking of Yeshua and how I fail Him on a daily basis.  Sin, sin, sin.

Sigh.

I am also gearing up to being a vegan again. I will keep on until it finally sticks one day.

This is a personal decision.  What you choose to eat is your business and none of mine just as what I eat is my business and no one else.

BTW I'm eating chocolate ice cream with a fork because it was sitting on my desk and as I am typing this I look over and see a spoon sitting right there looking at me.............all smug like........ stupid spoon.

Heh.

At any rate I went and got a professional massage the other day, cost me a couple buck short of one hundred dollars............GASP!

Sure felt good though.  I have a couple of "friends" I've know since I was in my early twenties.  They just found out I am gay and now I think I've lost them both as friends.  Pretty crushed by this.

Other friends I've known just as long have been standing by my side and encouraging me and I'm pretty happy about that.

Got to go........my ice cream is melting and the rest of that Xanadu video isn't going to watch itself.

TTFN!

In Yeshua's love,
me....Kenny....Kenneth.........Ken.....Pug

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