Straight to it
Yeah, I cant remember if I posted yet for 2021. Honestly I'm having a hard time doing this blog as I have been on my computer all day and thanks to my diabetes my vision is all messed up. When I started this blog I thought it would be the most candid this I've ever done. Now I have my doubts. So much has gone and yet probably in the scheme of eternity I've been acting like a wilting flower. I don't know what kind of flower.....pansy? I only said that because it's a deragotary term for gay people, most often men. I've heard that the pansy is the strongest flower in existence though. To give a break down: I'm sick I'm tired I'm uncertain of my future but most of all I'm having a crisis of faith. I don't doubt anything about what Yeshua has done for me or will do. I doubt my love for Him. How do I keep proclaiming my love for Him while I keep doing the things that I do? My heart hurts. My soul is weary,. I cry for His mercy and I long for...