The Evil Within
I know it's been quite awhile since I've written anything and I'm sorry. I think about my blog all the time. The trouble is that I am plagued with thoughts of, "Who am I to write anything? What do I have to offer anyone?". So much hate in the world, so much evil. I include myself in that previous statement. Oh, my heart longs to be pure, my heart longs to be good...........every time I allow hate or wrongful anger to take control I wonder if I could ever be anything but what I see when I look at myself in the mirror. When people laugh at my jokes, when people smile at me, when people say I'm a "good person", I can't help but respond in my head, "I've fooled you.". I'm not good. I'm not. I want to be. I wish I was. What is a good person? I don't know. I'm a middle age man (hard to believe) and I still have no idea of what life is or how I should live it. I think I'm pretty intelligent but ...